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this morning. sports meet. took mrt to yio chu kang. n yeah tong n i were on video duty. i was tired la. my eyes hurt so badly for the whole day. yeah n they were v swollen. oso i wasnt in a v gd mood.. n the whole thing was so sian.. plus so sunny!! hai we stood in the sun for almost whole 3 hours. anw thanks tong for understanding. she cld tell tt i wasnt feeling good i guess. yes i wasnt. i was sitting on the track.. n i cried. i realli cldnt help it la. i guess many ppl could tell la. thanks to 4/14 n uh weijia n gen for ur concern.
anw on the track ah.. weiqi was there.. den X came over n she was like, "WEIQI!!! AHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!" yah n i was like O.O i guess it was probably the 1st time i heard her scary laughter. ya itz reali freaky. n itz v obvious wad she was up to. asking abt cs la.
aft tt went for lunch wif dorothy, janet, kx, they all la. at j8.. so on the way.. i realli buay tahan.. felt like juz not going at all. cos i almost cried. it was v terrible la. but i geked a lot. so yeah.. i was basically looking stoned for the whole day. wif tt same expression. esp in the morning.
it was fine at j8 la haha. felt slightly better. oh n there happened to haf many shuai RI guys there. den we walked arnd quite a lot.. cos we all seemed to b v free. but broke. den we went to look for linying they all at sakae.. n linying, stellicia n huiyi were commenting on my eye bags. cos v v swollen. 1 said it looks black.. 1 said looks red.. the other said looks brown. so er.. ok... den linying say i looked like i put on eyeshadow.. juz tt itz below the eyes n not on the eyelids. --" but yeah my eyes were realli hurting. even the skin.
hmm den i reached toa payoh sports hall at 1+. when the bus was reaching the bus stop.. spotted junhong n the grp walking towards the sports hall. so i got off n rushed aft them. anw i was alone. cos every1 pang seh me. but it was okok lor. it was quite interesting.. n even more interesting to listen to their coach talk. haha n the way he said abt chen shao falling on his butt ytd was funny. "pi4 gu3 diao4 zai4 di4 shang4." yeah heard a lot from him abt the team too la.. oops is tt counted as eavesdropping. dun think so rite. he was juz talking quite loudly. ok la audibly.
den came their event. wah i was nervous all over n zuo4 li4 bu4 an1 again. but i found sth amusing!! hahaha cos they were all standing in a grp holding their gun4s. n they looked like they were frm the beggar sect! hahaha found tt v funny. uhh oops nvm.. anw they r damn pro. hahha ya it was v v nice. v well done la. even their coach said so. but he insisted tt he heard 2 gun4s knocking into each other. but i din hear leh even though i was in front of him. anw nvm it was realli zai. but hafta admit tt the rest were gd too.. even though umm ya i was hoping tt they wldnt do as well. haha oops again. but those grps tt got higher scores.. i think tt not all of them r exactly better lo. mayb being the 1st up is not tt gd. cos i think no matter how objective the judges r n stuff.. they r still humans la.. so ya..
den stayed for prize presentation cos i started having gastric pain.. so thot i wld feel better aft sitting for a while. ya n i stayed thruout cos the pain din go awae.. so i sit there n geked all the way. geked all the way home too.. 2 hours plus in all. damn pain la. oh n during the prize presentaton haha hci A div girls got 2nd in overall! but there wasnt even any A div girls down there at the carpet. so uh kelvin had to represent them. n it was v funny la haha.
abt other stuff.. ive cried it out. so hard tt it hurts. but i hafnt cried it all out.. hai guess tts not possible. i duno wad else to do la. juz saying wad i think wld juz provoke u n make things worse. n so i cant make anything better liao la. probably juz to leave u alone. i'll juz numb myself abt this i guess. juz let it settle by itself. i realli realli realli hope tt by the time this cools down n we cool down, we can be friends again.
why cant my tears just run out? i dun want to cry to sleep anymore.
time;9:00 PM